September 14th, 2022 – 8:42pm:

Tonight I am reflecting a bit on all God has done in my life over these past years. He is eternally faithful. He is the Provider. His ways are perfect. And so I remember what He said to me once, “Your calling is not about you.” I still think of this from time to time and as I’m preparing to step into this next season of ministry, I am reminding myself that as far as I’m concerned my journey, my personal journey, has ended. From this point onward… and it’s been this way for awhile… my journey is about Him and others.

I scroll through YouTube and I watch a show or two here and there and I watch people working very hard to see their dreams come true, to find significance in this world.

The lessons I’ve had to go through these past years from God have been to answer the question Jesus asked me, “Are you willing to become unknown so that I can become known?” And the answer is yes. There is a hollowing out that happens as you walk with the Lord. He prunes your heart, refines your spirit, softens the rough places… He does all of this in such a unique way to you as you allow Him to work in you. It’s very painful and lonely… but it is part of this journey with Him.

I sit here in the quiet of this farm. The night around me is silent. God’s presence is filling this room where I sit. I am curled under this hand-made quilt. I am cozy and warm. I have very little in the way of things, but yet I am beyond wealthy. I am rich beyond this world’s comprehension.

I am His. He is mine. And nothing and no one can ever change that for the rest of eternity.

So this journey of mine… isn’t mine… it’s His. Today was His and tomorrow is His because I am His. His will will be done in my life. Of this I have complete assurance. He asks and I do.

What happens tomorrow isn’t really any of my business… it’s His. And tonight I’ll curl up in His arms knowing that He is watching over my life… and it is Him that will lead me home.

This is peace. This is righteousness. This is holiness. I am at rest in Him. In His peace. In His righteousness. In His holiness.

And this is the message I carry now. The message I have for those I meet and to take with me to the world out there who has yet to hear of Him.