September 25th, 2022 – 8:20pm – The Farm, Meridian, TX, USA:

This weekend I’ve been pondering my journey ahead. I cannot see beyond my arrival in Israel. Yesterday I canceled the apartment I had booked for the first four days in Haifa. God had told me to not to make any plans of where to stay when I arrived but I disobeyed and made plans anyway. What a fool I am sometimes? Letting my fears get in the way of obeying God.

God wants this to be a journey of complete faith. But I keep wanting some sort of assurance or security. I want to know what money will provide for me… where I will lay my head… and what I will eat. And also what will I be doing? Who will be in my life there? And on and on…

God wants me to trust Him. And I am wrestling with that. How funny right? How can a man who hears God’s voice and obey in such radical ways still struggle with trusting God?

So I ask myself the deep questions… “Do I really trust God?” And the answer is a resounding yes.

I think what’s happening is that there is always a deeper lever God wants to take us to in our walk with Him. He says… this is the way walk in it and we take a few steps. And once we’ve done that He says again… this is the way walk in it… and we step out again. This is how our trust in Him grows through our personal experience of listening and obeying Him.

I wonder is my faith large? Or is my faith the size of a mustard seed? How much do I really trust Him?

In three days I step on a plane to South Korea. And from there I travel to Israel. And it’s all unknown beyond that. I’m just obeying God’s call to GO.

And that is enough for me. I have fears and I have doubts… I have sins that cling and prevailing thoughts I wrestle… but over the past four and half years I’ve listening and obeyed Him and I’ve seen with my very own eyes what He does and who He is. I know He watches over me. I know He protects me. I know that I belong to Him. I know that He chose me before I was born to fulfill a specific purpose to advance His kingdom on this earth and to be a witness to both men and angels of who He is through my relationship with Him.

My life points to Him. That’s my purpose and that’s slowly grown over the past four and half years. Angels and demons watch. God watches. The cloud of witnesses watches. And all of that is humbling.

I wonder if you’ve been paying attention to my journey so far? I wonder if you’ve gotten the point yet? I wonder how much of what God has been taking me through and expressing through my life has made an impact to you.

Isolation. Solitude. Obscurity. Purity. Power. Listening. Obedience. Relationship. Him. Clearly laid out. Clearly expressed. Clearly seen. Although hidden.

I’m about to step through yet another doorway. A doorway that will lead me into the next season of my journey. My relationship with Him is about to take another giant leap forward. I feel all this from the Holy Spirit.

And I want to share all this with you so that when you see what He is about to do you’ll remember these words.

And maybe… just maybe… it’ll shake something in you.

And maybe… just maybe… you’ll finally take a step toward Him.

And maybe… just maybe… He will open your heart, eyes, and ears to what He’s been saying all along.

Revival is coming. But I wonder if you’ll hear it and turn to Him or turn away?