October 3rd, 2022 – 3:07am – JIBS Hotel, Uijeongbu-si, South Korea:

God woke me at 2:30am as I slept in my hotel in South Korea and said, “Give your laptop to Han’s son.”

Back story… about a month ago I had a MacBook Pro only. And as I sat on the couch in my home in Texas, God put a desire in me for a very powerful pc laptop. So He made it possible for me to buy one. I was so excited when it arrived. It was top-of-the-line. An Alienware laptop… I have never had one before… and I was so happy. What a wonderful gift from my Father in heaven! So since I had this new powerful laptop I no longer needed my MacBook Pro, so I asked God who to give it to and He told me who. And so I have the MacBook Pro away. That left me only the new Alienware laptop. Yay! What a wonderful exchange! And I was blessed to be able to give a laptop to someone who needed one (although she didn’t yet know she needs it) hehe… but God did.

So as I began to prepare to come to South Korea and then onward to Israel I prepared my powerful laptop for the journey. As I did I felt from God very strongly that I must get a 4TB portable hard drive to take on my trip. So I bought one. It was weird though because I really didn’t need a portable hard drive.

So I left for South Korea and met my friend Han and my friends from the Korean prayer team. We had a wonderful weekend of sight seeing and adventure. Lots of sights and many wonderful meals together. Lots of memories I will forever treasure in my heart. How I love these people, my family afar.

God’s leading is always perfect. Let me explain and I hope you will see how His leading is seen in the events that played out. On Sunday after lunch we went to go to Han’s house and this made it possible for me to meet his two sons. One is 25 and the other 20. I met the older first and he told me he is learning 3D modeling, something that I myself know how to do very well. We talked a lot, his English is very good. And he told me of his work teaching himself 3D modeling. I met Han’s other son and learned He enjoys making YouTube videos. So I left Han’s house and went on with the day.

Now we are caught up to God waking me in the night. When God told me to give my powerful Alienware laptop away to Han’s older son I remember they were talking about him needing a new computer for his work. Han had also told me that his son wanted to make videos for Children to learn the gospel. So this gift will be such a blessing not only to his son but to many beyond in the work his son will do.

Now I sit here in the middle of the night thinking about this journey with the Lord. Truly all I have belongs to Him…

Tears roll down my cheeks as I think of giving away my laptop, my only laptop, in a few hours. But I will obey. God knows. He knew when I got the laptop that in this moment He would ask me to give it away and He knew I would obey. God watched me as I opened the laptop and set it up with such excitement that He could trust me with it… and He knew that shortly He would ask me to give that very thing away to another. What a mystery is God? His ways are so high about ours! His thinking incomprehensible!

So why am I telling this story? Also out of obedience.

And so I present a challenge to you, whoever you are reading this now, does everything you own belong to you? Or have you given it all over the the Lord? Where is your treasure? Where is your trust? Where is your heart?

I will give you some truth. I have learned a very difficult lesson over the past four and half years following God… I cannot go on from where I’m at to what He has for me if I do not obey. Obedience to Him is the key to everything in life. Wether it is giving something away. Weather it is moving to another country… or simply raising your children well. Whatever it is, make sure you are holding nothing back from Him. All belongs to Him. He gave it to you… and maybe, as I have learned and continue to learn… He gave it to you to give to someone else who needs that thing more. Blessed to be a blessing.

What will I do for a computer? I do not know, but God does. He has a plan for that as well. I trust Him with my life and with the things He gives me.

And here is the truth. I cannot go onwards without obeying Him. I cannot get on that plane tomorrow carrying this laptop that I love so much. Because the instant God told me to give it away it was no longer mine.

Remember the message I have been giving you all along my journey… the cost to follow Jesus is everything. Everything. It will cost you all the people you love and all your possessions to follow the path of the One who died for you. He asks nothing less.

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“As He (Jesus) was setting out on a journey, a man ran up to Him and knelt before Him, and asked Him, “Good Teacher, what shall I do so that I may inherit eternal life?” 18 But Jesus said to him, “Why do you call Me good? No one is good except God alone. 19 You know the commandments: ‘Do not murder, Do not commit adultery, Do not steal, Do not give false testimony, Do not defraud, Honor your father and mother.’” 20 And he said to Him, “Teacher, I have kept all these things from my youth.” 21 Looking at him, Jesus showed love to him and said to him, “One thing you lack: go and sell all you possess and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven; and come, follow Me.” 22 But he [a]was deeply dismayed by [b]these words, and he went away grieving; for he was one who owned much property.”

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I pray the the God who has shown Himself to be a good Father will fill you with His Holy Spirit right now. I ask that God will open the eyes of your heart and give you understanding. I ask for a revelation of ownership in your life. I ask that the lessons of giving would fill your life. I ask God that He would show you who He is… so that you would be able to trust Him and give not out of your abundance but out of your lack. That even when you only have a very little, you can give even to the last two pennies to Him. Is He not faithful to provide? Is He not our Creator? Is He not our Father?

So onward I go on this journey God has set before me. Lighter without a laptop… but so completely filled with the love of God that I am overflowing with it. What grace! What goodness! What thoughtfulness of God! I am humbled to be able to be His vessel to touch the peoples of the world!

My only prayer and hope now is that you, you reading this, can grasp the wonderful love of God… and that you too would learn to give and give and give until you have nothing left. Then you will know Him truly… like I do.

So come with me on this journey as we see what God can do with one who is totally devoted to Him.

“For the eyes of the Lord move to and fro throughout the earth so that He may support those whose heart is completely His.” – 2 Chronicles 16:9 AMP

Are you completely His?