December 2nd, 2022 – 9:31am – Haifa Hostel, Haifa, Israel:

Can we truly trust God? Can we really take Him at His Word? Is He the good Father He says He is?

I know the answers to these questions not from some wild and crazy faith in nothing but by experience… through obedience… through suffering… and by choosing to trust God. In the same way, for you, you have to experience God for yourself to find the answers to these questions yourself.

I entered obscurity two days ago and left behind the remains of the life I had lived before and stepped into this new season of being “Unknown”…

God always confirms His Word. A good friend of mine sent me a voice message this morning, oh how I miss her, and in the voice message she was sharing what her pastor had spoken on this past Sunday… “Living Unencumbered”. She was saying that the Pastor spoke about Jesus sending out the 70 with just the clothes on their backs… to seek and save that which was lost. Her message was so timely, so right now and such an encouragement to me. God is a good Father.

Already I feel more and more disconnected from my past and more and more connected to God. It’s an amazing transformation. It is just me and God now and those I meet along the way.

It’s peaceful for me… because the way my spiritual gifts work is that I “feel” everything from the people I am connected to in this world. They are always on the edge of my senses… their lives played out in vivid color for me day by day in a very tiring way because of my deep love for them. My gifts were given to me to use during this time of my life… the “GO” time. Now I step fully into the “GO” where He will send me and do what He tells me to do. With no one else’s doubt blinding my way… just me and God and the journey.

When I listen now the only voice I hear is His. No longer any performance trying to break in. No one to perform for. I can be free… to listen and obey no matter the cost. I can go anywhere and do anything He asks me to do. I can finally learn who He really is… my source… my provider… my God and King.

Also what changes is this blog and the way I am writing it. From now on I will write it as if I am speaking to the world as a whole. Before it was a way to “update” those who love me and who I love. But now that they are gone… I can be free to speak to the world through this blog. I wish I had better words to explain it… eternal words that would make sense to you who reads this.

But let’s move on from all this “natural” stuff and focus now on the eternal. On what truly matters… seeing the Kingdom of God grow across the globe one person at a time. One smile… one conversation… one slight shift in the paths of those I meet.

Do I trust my God? Absolutely. I belong to Him. Created for a purpose and to step into the complete fulfillment of the plan He laid out for my life before the foundations of the earth. My time is short… my days pass… and I have work to do.

So… I set out to answer the question, “What can God do with one who is totally devoted to Him?”

To Know Him And To Make Him Known with every last breath I am given… and then… then I’ll rest for eternity knowing that I pleased Him.