December 25th, 2022 – 8:29pm – Mom’s House, Sherman, Texas, USA:

It has been an interesting Christmas for sure. Friday as I went to run some errands I drove my sisters car, a Nissan Merano. As I was driving it God told me that my sister was going to give the car to me. I thought nothing of God’s comment and continued on my day. I planned an upcoming trip to visit dear friends. Saturday morning my sister turned to me and said, “God told me to give you my car.” It was very difficult but she was obedient. I received the gift gratefully. Later that day I was speaking with God about the car and He told me to give the car back to my sister. So this morning I gave the car back to my sister. God said He has other plans for me moving forward.

This blog becomes one of my books in a series of books that chronicle my journey… and so I have to write things down for people who will walk these pages long after I have gone home.

God spoke to me this morning and told me that it is time I move in from being always concerned with money, bills, food, lodging, etc. The endless cares of this world. And when He was talking to me about this He reminded me of the passage:

““Therefore I tell you, stop being worried or anxious (perpetually uneasy, distracted) about your life, as to what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, as to what you will wear. Is life not more than food, and the body more than clothing? Therefore do not worry or be anxious (perpetually uneasy, distracted), saying, ‘What are we going to eat?’ or ‘What are we going to drink?’ or ‘What are we going to wear?’ For the [pagan] Gentiles eagerly seek all these things; [but do not worry,] for your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But first and most importantly seek (aim at, strive after) His kingdom and His righteousness [His way of doing and being right—the attitude and character of God], and all these things will be given to you also. “So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” – Matthew 6:25, 31-34 AMP

Car or no car. Clothes or no clothes. Home or no home. These things are no longer my concern. My concern is to be about the work that God has set before me. He will take care of the rest. That is what He is moving me into. And I felt it… in the deepest part of me… like something clicked and I just understood it finally. Eyes like flint on the race I am to run.

For the past four and half years God has been working on the deep places of my heart. He has asked me time and time again to give away the things that are most precious to me in this world: cars, home, computers, consoles, country, family, friends… etc. And every time I obeyed something changed in me and I realized that what I was holding onto was holding me back from become who God wants me to become for Him. And each time something left my life I became more and more free. How difficult it is for a rich man to enter into the kingdom of Heaven. Right? Do you see it yet? I do.

Today I have very little. And in a few weeks I will have even less. This is how God wants it to be. Unknown to the world and with nothing. Why? I guess you’ll have to stick around and see what comes next. The best parts are soon…

Today is a turning point.

“Father, I ask forgiveness for my sin of survival and I fully commit my needs to you. I ask that you will uproot my selfish desperation for security, for assured sustenance, and for reliable future. Teach me to place all of these things in your hands. Show me how to lives the life you’re leading me into. To rely and completely depend on you for all my needs and for my complete focus to be on the advancement of your kingdom on this earth. In Jesus name, Amen.”