I’ve been preparing to start the Undivided Purpose Project next Tuesday, the 11th of February by praying and seeking God to show me what exactly He is wanting from this year-long project.

God is always funny. Yesterday after lunch I was tired from being up since very early and wanted to take a short nap, but God insisted that I watch the movie: War Room. So, I obeyed. I sat down to watch this movie at 11am. I kept asking God as I watched the movie, “Why am I watching this movie about prayer?” Prayer is good, I pray every day… so why was God having me watch this movie? Then… Oh… then…

The part at the end of the movie where the old lady tells the younger lady that she needs to find someone to pass on what God had taught her. And the Holy Spirit literally slammed me. I was overwhelmed and started to cry the presence of God was so strong in the room. God went on to tell me that it was time I passed on what He has taught me these past six and half years. He told me my time was short and that it was time for me to teach/show/instruct/share/etc. with those who would carry the flame on. It took me a few hours to recover from this divine encounter… but needless to say I got the message. It was a very… Sobering… experience with God.

He went on last night and this morning to further flesh out what He is thinking for the different parts of this project… the purpose being set in stone… now the methods… of course God doesn’t often give me the whys of a project. But the whys are none of my business… my job is to listen and obey. He handles the rest.

This morning I was praying for provision for bills and such and God slammed me again… He pointed out that I was only praying for “financial” provision… but that I needed to begin to pray for all the provision I was going to need… emotional stability and encouragement, spiritual protection and growth, physical health, mental endurance, and on and on. God pointed out that He had always provided for me… for everything including the very breath in my lungs. I saw it clearly once He explained it. Sure… on some level I knew that I needed all these other things but never equated them to “Provision”.

Now I read Philippians 4:19 differently:

“But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.”

God went on to explain that I needed to focus on “the one” that would be… how to put this… carry on the mantle… no… carry the flame… He gave me this vision of this “one” person out there that would need what God is going to pour through me this next year as I work on this project. God told me that I needed to start praying for this “one”.

I find it all very interesting. To watch God write my story. To watch Him lead me in the hows of creating something… which is what He has done since the beginning of this journey.

Now… getting back to something God said yesterday to me… about my time being almost up. I believe Him. But I wanted to say that this doesn’t mean that I am going to die… it may… surely… but historically… each name change has been a “death” of sorts for that part of my life. I only have two more years as Asher Caelum Oswald… then on to the next name… and the next name’s meaning is kinda ominous. While I cannot share the actual name with you I can share its meaning:

“firm, enduring, strong and long-lived at the summit of the mountain stranger, traveler, pilgrim”

That’s the meaning of my sixth name… and the meaning of the seventh takes it even further:

“Unseen one given by God”

God is the God of Mystery always. I think that’s why I love this journey with Him.

I keep seeing this vision of me backing away into the shadows after finishing this book series… stepping away from sight… surely the only thing God has said beyond the book series is that I will “rest” whatever that means. Mystery again. Mystery always.

God is writing all of our stories and in fact they are already written. God sees the end of your story the same as He sees the beginning.

One last thing I want to share… I saw this fascinating YouTube short that literally floored me and changed everything for me:

I’ll leave ya’ll with that for now.