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Book Description: “The Ninth Witness Testament” is the telling of the continuing journey of Benjamin Potéxaná Kareth. This book chronicles Benjamin’s journey from a farm in nowhere Texas to a little town somewhere in the middle of the United States of America in obedience to the Lord. Benjamin’s journey into deep solitude continues deeper and deeper with all the mystery and loneliness that comes along with it.
A Glimpse Inside:
Chapter 9: Hidden Away, Small-Town America
June 12th, 2023 – 6:17pm – In Solitude, Abiding In Obscurity:
How to catch you up? Let me back up and try to tell the full story of the journey from there to here.
One week ago, in obedience to the Lord, I boarded an airplane leaving Dallas, TX. I landed in a city and had an overnight layover and then flew to another city. In that city I boarded an Amtrak train. I traveled for two days aboard that train and then took another train. Halfway through that train trip I disembarked and boarded two buses and an Uber ride to finally land in a small town in a state I have never lived in before. The population of this city is small. It is quaint… homey. The people here so far are very friendly. God provided a place to stay. A small room in a small motel. It is cozy.
Along the journey here I met many people and had some crazy adventures for sure. Never a dull moment serving the Lord. I got food poisoning along the way and spent my first day in this town in bed unable to move. Today I am finally feeling better.
I began to work on the books again today. And that is going well. There is a clearness to the air here spiritually. God has me right where He wants me. I feel that this will be the place I am while I finish this book series. I’ll write 72 books in this small town. This is where I’ll complete The Book Of Benjamin Kareth.
What an amazing God we serve! I left behind everything I owned so I need many things financially. I need a laptop to work on and clothes and food. But God will provide one day at a time.
My responsibility is to complete this book series. It is to be my sole focus for the next four years. I considered getting a job here to provide for myself, but God has clearly said that isn’t what He wants for me. I am to continue the Seven 7s schedule and complete this book series. So, I will trust Him to provide for me day by day. I am praying that He will raise up supporters to support the journey until it’s complete. I am unable to post anything to the blog or reach out to anyone for help. So, I am alone here with the Lord. It’s just me and Him… for the next four years.
I reflect that He has prepared me every step of the way the past 5 years. Moment-by-moment He has been preparing me for this. That’s what He does… He truly is a good, good Father!
I can feel it you know. I can feel His great love for me. I can sense and feel the flowing of the Holy Spirit in and around me here. I see what He has planned and trust that He has everything in His hands. I am so overwhelmed with gratitude to Him for this calling that is on my life. I get to be alone with Him and share what He tells me with you along the way. Who could want anything else as a calling from the Lord? The high cost of everything and everyone is so worth it! Every year I cry from loneliness is worth it… why? Because of you, my friend. I get to die so that you can have something from the Lord.
If you look throughout the scriptures, you can see it… how God works in and through His prophets. This is nothing new. Just God once again offering life to people through someone who has offered their life to Him.
I am humbled to be so called. What is God calling you to? Are you ready to give it all to Him? Are you ready to be sent to the ends of the earth to accomplish God’s purposes? Are you willing to die so that God can be known? It’s time to say Yes. What does tomorrow hold for me here in small town America? I do not know. But I do know the One who holds all my tomorrows.
Chapter 51: Unto Death
August 24th, 2023 – 9:26pm – In Solitude, Abiding In Obscurity in Small-town America:
God has asked me to write everything I experience down as best I can in these pages for you to have and to hold and to read or listen to. The good and the bad and everything in between. The difficulties and the journey and the obedience and the loneliness.
What does it all add up to in the end? Simply this… my journey has been, is, and will continue to be about Knowing Him and making Him known. Isn’t that love? Isn’t that what being a true follower of Jesus all about? Loving God and loving people.
Tonight, I lay in bed… pondering the past 5 years. Listening and speaking with God. Oh, how living He is toward me. How gentle He is with my heart!
I am so tired and weary and drained from this journey. The endless miles traveled. The loneliness that seems ever present. The not understanding that seems prevalent. But the one thing that remains my solid God is His voice. His still, small voice… urging me onward.
Tonight, He showed me again all the people that my life has impacted over these past five years. All the people I have met and talked to and shared Him with. Each and every single one of them and the ripples outward of God’s love pouring through me… through all my broken cracks… through this clay jar.
He is teaching me what humility is. What a hard lesson that. It is sadly a lesson that many never come to experience or learn in their lives. I see it new now… humility. What I once thought it was… wasn’t it at all. The truth of it is this… humility is being devoid of self-righteousness… it is the “unto death” that is the journey of taking up our cross, whatever that be, and wearily step-by-step walking down the path that leads us to our deaths. Do you see it? Can you see it? Don’t turn away now. Don’t shut the book. Don’t turn off the audio book. Just listen. Just open your eyes and see what God is trying to say to your heart of hearts.
I have this broken voice and these fumbling words with which to try to show you WHO God is… who He really is. My feeble attempts to tell you that God loves you and that He has your very best in His mind. Keep walking forward. Keep on going. Keep on listening and obeying Him. The prize is Him. That’s the message I was given by Him to speak into this world. It is not a message that I have ever heard in all my life before. But it is a message that you can’t really hear or see before you really experience Him for yourself. His world is not this world. His ways are not our ways. His will is not our will. His love is beyond anything we can or will ever experience here. All we can have are glimpses… but those glimpses should urge us onward unto death.
God is so much more than love. He is beyond love. Unitary in His being. He is… all. I could write a thousand books speaking of Him and still never get close to even touching WHO He is. But what I can say… is that He IS the prize. All came from Him. All is in Him. All will return to Him. All in all. He is. And because He is, we are.
The truth is that I am more broken than I have ever been before. I am weaker than I have ever been before. I am less than I have ever been. I am not more known. I am not wealthy. But… I have all. I have Him. In Jesus I have all things. Why? Because I have the One who is all. There is nothing that God would not give me… not one thing. I see that now so clearly. But my prayer has been that He would use my life to point to Him. And so… He has crushed me under the weights of suffering and loneliness. He has taken my lifetime and time again and stripped it bare of the things of this world. I didn’t understand it along the way… how could I have! I was blind. But now I see. I was lost but now I am found. I won’t be known on this earth in my lifetime, but I am known completely by Him.
Like a spoiled child I have clung to many things that I thought I needed to be happy. I held onto things thinking that some who they held the meaning of my life. That somehow, they gave me identity and purpose. But they were empty and ended in death.
I cannot walk your journey with God for you. I cannot make your choices for you. I can only tell you what I have come to know and hope that somehow God opens your ears and eyes to see Him as I do. To come to understand and to know Him personally as I do.
There will come a day when your life ends. It will either be sudden, or you will see it coming. In that moment all the things you held so tightly to will be nothing. Have you ever considered this? Have you ever thought of this? Have you ever sat and really weighed your life? Homeless or rich. Fed or hungry. Fat or thin. All of these things will be stripped away, and you will stand before God alone. No one will stand with you that day. You will face Him. And He will ask you what you did in your life to love. To love Him and to love others. What will your answer be?
If you’ve traveled the pages of my books and come to this chapter, then you’ve read of my journey. With all its ups and downs… ins and outs. One thing I am confident of is that these books speak of Him. And that is all I can hope for with the days I have left. That in every moment my smile, and laughter, and kindness, and words, point to the God who first loved me.
I am not the man I was five years ago. I am not the man I was yesterday. I am not the man I will be tomorrow. God is at work in my life to will and to do His good pleasure. One day at a time. From glory to glory. From goodness to goodness. Suffering and loneliness have been His tools to mold my heart and mind into His likeness… into the likeness of Christ. I am misunderstood. I am rejected. I am alone. Outcast. Far from friends and family. He is at work in me to do what He alone wants. This is the journey. This is the path. This is the way of the cross of Christ. Broad is the way that leads to destruction and death, but narrow is the way that leads to life.
My righteousness isn’t my own, but my right-standing with God is through Christ. My merit is Jesus. He is my salvation. And it is through Him alone that I live and breathe and have my being. This is active now… and has been active since I accepted Him as my savior. Heaven has come to bear on my life. I see it… now more than ever before.
So, seek Him and you’ll discover what I have discovered. He is the prize. It’s what Jesus said in all He said over and over again. I am the way, the truth, and the life. No man comes to the Father but through me. What does tomorrow hold? I don’t know. But I know who holds my tomorrows. I know the One… and He has sent me to the one. This is my testimony. This is my faith. This is all mine because I belong to Him. Do you?
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