I have now published 57 books of The Book Of Benjamin Kareth… 43 to go. I start writing the next 7 books on November 30th, 2024. I have updated the Time Line:

The Timeline of 100 Books

If you’d like to check out the completed books they are available on Amazon.com here:

The Book of Benjamin Kareth on Amazon.com

It has been a crazy year and half almost since I left Texas to come to this little city in the middle of Nowhere USA. God has provided for all my needs one day at a time and has never failed to provide what I have needed.

Even beyond my needs He has blessed me with abundance in many areas of my life. The odd thing is that I still feel like the same man God rescued 6 and half years ago. I am still wondering when the day will come where I wake up and feel like a new man, a different man, and a changed man. God has been having me read the Witness Testaments of The Book Of Benjamin Kareth and its really weird to be encouraged by your own writings. I read about all the experiences I’ve had these past six years and honestly I’m just amazed at all God has carried me safely through. He has continued to provide for me, call me back to Himself, hold tightly to me, keep me safe from danger, lead me with His still, small voice, and so on… Always faithful… He has been always faithful.

I look at the Time Line of 100 Books and just sit there staring in awe really. That God could take a gay, video game designer and up-end his whole world. I thought I was impossible, THE impossible… but God has done the inner work I never thought possible. Is everything changed? No. Is everything redeemed? No. But there is change. I am certainly not the man I was before.

I’ve just written three books on sanctification… well God did… because what do I know of that topic?!

But that right there is what God did… He has been sanctifying me… which means to set apart for holy purpose. In all rights He has removed me from my family, my friends, and from the world. Oh, I still exist. I still wake each morning… and pay bills… and work… but I am no longer going with the flow of this world. Certainly I still struggle with sin… that’s not what I’m talking about.

I’m talking about will, dreams, this life and all that men and women strive for on this earth. God has been transforming those… deep places in me. That is what this book series speaks of… that deep transformation that God does in us… that changes us from the inside out.

Are you so desperate to be perfect on the outside that you are unwilling to allow God in to do the work He needs to do in the place that needs the work?

God spoke to me often of “the wilderness” that He was taking me into. I translated that into “an actual wilderness” you know because I’m so human sometimes. Time and time again I tried to GO to an actual wilderness… somewhere in the world… and each time God was gracious and gentle with me. “No, not this place.” God would say… “Time to go.” And I would go… trying to find this wilderness He was leading me into. But now my eyes are open… I see the wilderness around me. The Solitude. The Obscurity. The “being in the world but not of it” I abide in now.

He took me around the country in my car… and He had me listen to audio books of the great men and women of God. Their testimonies and their life stories… and I listened so intently to see if I could figure out what the secret was to being an actual man or woman of God…

but I didn’t get it… didn’t understand it… until..

God told me: “You must become unknown even unto yourself.” It was the additional part of what Jesus had asked me earlier: “Are you willing to be unknown so that I can be known?”

We just don’t want to hear it. We turn away. We go our own way. We sit on our own throne. Sure we serve God… but when difficulty come we go do whatever we want to do rather than walk through that suffering with God.

Obscurity means unknown… but it also means “hard to understand, a mystery.”

Let’s listen to those things again…

“Are you willing to become a mystery, hard to understand, so that I can be known, seen, and understood better?”

“You must become a mystery, hard to understand, even unto yourself.”

Of course I am still growing and learning. My journey is far from over…

And so we come again to The Choice And The Call:

I think about it sometimes. What if there is prison in my future for serving Him? What if I am to die a martyr for Him? What if those moments come and I have to make a choice? I know this, I have to make that choice now, today. I can’t wait till it comes to me. Do you see what I am saying? Whatever God asks, we must do today. We can’t wait. We must keep our lamps trimmed and filled with oil, or we will miss when the bridegroom comes.

It happens today. It happens in this moment. Because I know one thing now, the choice your are making today is the choice you’ll make when those moments come. It’s what Jesus said to His disciples, “Pray so that you do not fall into temptation.” And I have to wonder, if Peter had been on His face before God in the garden before Jesus was arrested and not been sleeping, would he have betrayed Jesus three times? When the gun is pointed at my face and I am asked to deny Christ what will my answer be?

I know that today I must choose Him, so that tomorrow I’ll choose Him as well. How many wake up calls can we hear? How many messages must God send us to get us to wake up? That is the theme of the books that I’ve written and the books I will write. They are a wake up call. A call to return to the Lord fully and completely. A call today. 43 more times I will raise my voice and cry out a warning, but will anyone hear?

It’s time to wake up.