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Set #4, Vision #9: Blinding Light
So, I have been continuing to write visions that God has been giving me to finish the 12 sets of 12 visions. I posted the first twelve in this blog about a month ago. These 12 sets of 12 visions will all make up the book: Part 84: Eternity Now that will be released sometime in Spring of 2026.
Today, God showed me the following vision and I felt I was suppose to share it with you today:
Set #4, Vision #9: Blinding Light
B.P.K. – 12/19/2025
I opened my eyes and saw…
…blinding light.
I was looking directly as the throne of God. I stood in the center of the throne place. People, angels, and heavenly creatures surrounded me on all sides, but I paid no attention to them. I was consumed by the light radiating from God Himself. I knew that what I was seeing even here in this place, the central core of God’s manifested presence in heaven, was not God Himself. All things were in Him, for Him, and through Him. How could we ever see Him completely. No. This light, this brilliant glory pouring out from His manifested presence in this place was not all that God was. I fell to my knees. Wave after wave of God’s incredible love for me overwhelmed me. I was His. I belonged to Him. I was created by Him for Him. All of this He was communicating to me in every way I could possibly receive that communication. Every element of my being was alive in His love. I felt whole and holy like I have never felt before. All thought of anything other than Him was gone. In that place it was just He and I in the whole of creation. That is what I felt. That is what He was telling me. Words weren’t needed. The knowledge flowed through the Holy Spirit that inhabited my whole being. I was alive because He was alive. Through Jesus Christ I had become a part of God Himself through the Holy Spirit. How was all this possible? To be part of God Himself in such a way?! It was all far too wonderful to comprehend.
I saw my whole life in a flash and knew… that He had been a part of each moment. His love had protected me, guided me, healed me, led me, gifted me, saved me, transformed me, sanctified me, held me, comforted me, and so much more. I saw it all. Every second of my life from birth till this moment and on outward down through the eternities of the eternities forever I saw in Him. I was raptured.
I recalled a moment in time when someone had asked me to list my talents from least to greatest. In a moment I knew that nothing was impossible for me. I could do anything God asked of me because everything came from Him. Every talent I possessed was His gift to me at just the right time for the exact purpose for which He had gifted it. It was all for His glory and the advancement of His kingdom. I saw that His kingdom expanded outward from the cross and consumed all that had been, was, and would be. What Jesus did on the cross changed every atom of time past, time present, and time eternal. What He finished on the cross was finished eternally.
I stood shaking to my feet in that throne place. I saw myself back on earth typing on a laptop in a small room and I knew… I knew that he would make it. I knew that he would complete all God had for him to do there in that place and on earth. Even that knowledge overwhelmed me.
The vision began to fade.
I knew that there would be so many more to come…
… the time came. I stepped back and was caught up from that place.
You can read the first Set of 12 Visions here:
Set #1: 12 Visions
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God’s Promises Fulfilled
This morning I was thinking of all the promises God has made to me over the years of my life and how I am seeing those promises begin to be fulfilled.
Let me take you back 7 years to a moment in my life I have never forgotten…
I was in Northfield, MA. on the Northfield Mount Hermon School campus attending a conference. One evening Randy Clark was going to speak and I knew I wanted to listen to his message. I sat and listened and the Holy Spirit was on me so powerfully. Randy called for everyone that was feeling the Holy Spirit on them to come forward for prayer. As I was ablaze in the power of the Holy Spirit at that moment, my hands, arms, and body felt on fire, I went forward and joined the long line of people to receive prayer. I stood right in front of the center aisle of the church. Randy began to pray for people far down the line from me… but I was already so lost in the presence of God I wasn’t noticing anymore what was around me. Then the power of God hit me like a lightning bolt and I lost all control and fell to the ground like a toppled tree. As I lay there I was taken up into two separate visions:
The first vision I was looking out over an impossibly large crowd of people that cover all the land in front of me from left to right all the way outward to beyond the horizon line. Jesus stood next to me and He said, “These are all the people I am going to touch through your life.” Then He put his hand on my shoulder and said, “But that is not the most incredible thing I am going to do through you.”
Then the vision changed and I was out in space looking down on the earth. Jesus was next to me and said, “One day you are going to speak and everyone on earth will hear your voice and I am going to speak through you to them.”
These two visions contained promises from God to me. Both have been burned into my mind ever since. I have traveled the twisting, winding path of this journey of Obedience to God now for seven years since that day in Northfield, MA.
How has God begun to fulfill those promises?!
Well… I have to date written 78 books of a 100 book series of books that all point heavenward to Him. The books of the book seires: The Book Of Benjamin Kareth all tell of the faithfulness of God to me and tell of my personal relationship with Him. I do not yet know how God will use this book series, or if He will in my lifetime on this earth, but I know He has big plans for it. The book series will be complete in a little over two years from now. The end is in sight.
On the 15th of December, a reading and devotional plan for the YouVersion bible app was released called Kingdom Come: A Year Of Breakthrough, you can see its logo and description below:
Screenshot You can find this reading plan here:
Kingdom Come: A Year Of Breakthrough in YouVersion App
How does this reading plan fulfill the promises of God to me?
Quite simply this…
I wrote the daily devotionals contained within this reading plan. I wrote the 356 devotionals included, my mom then edited them. It is my voice and heart that God used to write these for people to read and learn more about Him.
So, here are two examples of how God is fulfilling His promises to me.
Why share this?
To encourage you to continue doing whatever it is that God has put on your heart to do. You do not know what God has planned for what you are doing.
Your job is to listen and obey and its God’s job to take the 5 loaves and 2 fish to feed the 5,000.
If you feel unseen… God’s not finished yet with your story… just be patient. Give it all to God and trust Him to do things in His timing for His glory.
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Part 55: The Second Sanctification
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Book Description: “The Second Sanctification” is Part 55 of The Book Of Benjamin Kareth. The Second Sanctification is an exploration of the journey we take through this life following Jesus Christ and are transformed into a new creation by the power of the Holy Spirit. This journey of sanctification happens as we call on the Lord to save us and trust Him to do His work in and through us in this life with the days He has given us.
A Glimpse Inside:
Chapter 6: He Who Began Will Complete
God will finish the work He began in you. God is faithful and we can trust that what God began to do in us He will finish. As it is written:
“I am convinced and confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will [continue to] perfect and complete it until the day of Christ Jesus [the time of His return]. [Rom 14:10]” – Philippians 1:6 AMP
This verse speaks of the Second Sanctification: of our continued growth in Jesus Christ by the power of the Holy Spirit. We are held by God in this world to accomplish what He created us to accomplish in Him and through Him.
You were created for a specific purpose as are all of God’s children. As it is written:
“For it is [not your strength, but it is] God who is effectively at work in you, both to will and to work [that is, strengthening, energizing, and creating in you the longing and the ability to fulfill your purpose] for His good pleasure.” – Philippians 2:13 AMP
We do nothing by our own strength but as we humble ourselves before God asking for His help to accomplish the things He has asked us to, then He does help us and empower us to do those things. We must learn humility by what we suffer through obedience just as Jesus Christ did.
I never want to write. This is a truth I’ve battled these past six years. People would think that I love to write and that’s why God asked me to write a book series… but nothing could be further from the truth. I hate writing. I find it very boring. It’s such an odd admission for sure… but it is also a testimony of both God’s faithfulness and my surrender and obedience to Him. I write to obey what He has asked me to do. I am inspired to write by the Holy Spirit. I am driven to write by the power of God. It is God working in and through me. And this all is a testimony to others of Him. When I sit to write I simply pray, “Have your will through me.” And He does. He works in and through me to write the pages of all these books. My part of that process is both obedience and surrender. I must lay down my own ways and do what He has asked me to do. God will finish writing this book series through me… of this I have zero doubt. I can say this because I know who He is. I know that the books get written because I have seen them in heaven in my prepared place. I have held all 100 in my hands. They exist in eternity… but not yet fully in this temporal world. Serving God is such wonderful mystery. To be caught up in the plans and will of the Father is incredible. I highly recommend it for your life as well. Seek His will for your life and you’ll soon find yourself carried along by His power to accomplish His will on this earth.
Chapter 15: The Anvil Of Life
As God refines us, He uses the circumstances of our lives to do just that. When we come to Him and begin to walk with Him then He uses every circumstance we face to refine us as gold. Life is the anvil on which He hammers us into something beautiful. If only we trust Him to do the work in and through us, He promised to do. He is the author and the finisher of our faith. He knows the plans He has for us and they are plans to prosper us and to give us hope and a future.
I can testify that God is good and that everything that He does is good. I have seen this through the suffering I have endured as I have “listened and obeyed” Him. I did not know what He was doing at the time but now I look back and I see His hands all over the paths He led me down.
The paths that I walk today are the paths that He planned for me to walk before I was ever born. What an amazing thing that is! And God has asked me to lay my life down before Him on the anvil of this life so that He might refine me into pure gold. What a painful journey it has been as I have had to die to my selfish ways. I still have far to go! But God is faithful! He is always faithful! He will carry me home to be with Him.
Learning to love suffering in this life, not because we enjoy suffering, but because we know what the suffering produces in us: an eternal weight of glory. Nothing compares to looking back at a season of suffering and seeing the wonderful glory that radiates off our hearts as we have been refined on the anvil of life.
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Part 54: The First Sanctification
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Book Description: “The First Sanctification” is Part 54 of The Book Of Benjamin Kareth. The First Sanctification is the moment we give our lives and our hearts to Jesus Christ and are transformed into a new creation. This moment of sanctification happens as we call on the Lord to save us. At this moment we are transferred from the kingdom of darkness to the kingdom of God, of the light. We are a new creature and our life is now hidden in Jesus Christ. This book is an exploration of this First Sanctification, our salvation moment through Jesus Christ.
A Glimpse Inside:
Chapter 5: Spiritual Birth, The New Birth
When we come to the foot of the cross and we accept Jesus as our Savior and Lord we are born again by the working of the Holy Spirit. Salvation’s work is a mystery but we have an explanation of it from Jesus Himself:
“Jesus answered him, “I assure you and most solemnly say to you, unless a person is born again [reborn from above—spiritually transformed, renewed, sanctified], he cannot [ever] see and experience the kingdom of God.” Nicodemus said to Him, “How can a man be born when he is old? He cannot enter his mother’s womb a second time and be born, can he?” Jesus answered, “I assure you and most solemnly say to you, unless one is born of water and the Spirit he cannot [ever] enter the kingdom of God. That which is born of the flesh is flesh [the physical is merely physical], and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit. Do not be surprised that I have told you, ‘You must be born again [reborn from above—spiritually transformed, renewed, sanctified].’ The wind blows where it wishes and you hear its sound, but you do not know where it is coming from and where it is going; so it is with everyone who is born of the Spirit.”” – John 3:3-8 AMP
To be born again is to be born of heaven by being spiritually transformed by the Holy Spirit, renewed and sanctified by the work of God.
Faith is the trust that what God says He does, and this goes for our salvation as well. As we put our faith in Jesus Christ, we find that everything in us begins to change, and we are no longer the person we were before. We are renewed. We are set apart from the world around us. The end of the verse above speaks volumes to us about how are life in the Holy Spirit will be as we trust God to do His sanctifying work in us. We will be like the wind; people will not know where we are coming from or where we are going. We now move with the Holy Spirit through this life by doing the will of our Father in heaven. It’s glorious to behold our new life in Jesus Christ taking shape and to see that we are becoming more and more like Him.
Chapter 9: An Act Of God
Our First Sanctification is an act of God’s will. Our salvation is an act of God’s will as it is written:
“In Him also we have received an inheritance [a destiny—we were claimed by God as His own], having been predestined (chosen, appointed beforehand) according to the purpose of Him who works everything in agreement with the counsel and design of His will, so that we who were the first to hope in Christ [who first put our confidence in Him as our Lord and Savior] would exist to the praise of His glory. In Him, you also, when you heard the word of truth, the good news of your salvation, and [as a result] believed in Him, were stamped with the seal of the promised Holy Spirit [the One promised by Christ] as owned and protected [by God]. [John 7:39; Acts 2:33] The Spirit is the guarantee [the first installment, the pledge, a foretaste] of our inheritance until the redemption of God’s own [purchased] possession [His believers], to the praise of His glory.” – Ephesians 1:11-14 AMP
God chose us in Christ. He loved us and so we love Him. Think of it… God willed that you would come to Jesus Christ and be saved. What a wonderful mystery is our salvation!
We are stamped and sealed by the Holy Spirit as belonging to God. This is our destiny and God’s election of us. This is our amazing inheritance in Jesus Christ for the glory of God. We exist to the praise of His glory. Think on this… our entire purpose is to exist to the praise of His glory. That you stand here today saved through Jesus Christ’s sacrifice on the cross is for the sole purpose of the glory of God. That is amazing.
We are claimed and belong to God in Jesus Christ. We are His. This is our purpose and our place in Christ. This is our identity. We are no longer of this world but are now and forever of God and our lives are hidden in Christ. This is our portion. Let all this soak in. Let it cover and overwhelm you. This is time for you to really understand who you are in Jesus Christ. It is time that you allow the Holy Spirit to cause you to cry out, “Abba Father!” in the understanding that you are truly a child of God. And all of this, all of it, is an act of God’s own sovereign will and due to His good pleasure. He is joyful over you. He sings songs about you belonging to Him. He is so happy that you are His. All of this is the truth that you must come to understand and to walk in. This is faith.
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My God Provides Bread
I want to tell you a story of what God just did for me today…
Do you ever feel like God is distant? Far from you? Doesn’t care?
Well… maybe this story will encourage you.
A couple months ago God told me to remain in my apartment and not leave for any reason. I was to use Instacart for groceries. I have obeyed…
But using Instacart has a drawback… I have to order a large order whenever God provides money for me to do so. If I forget something I cannot leave to run to the store to pick it up.
Over the past month and a half I keep running out of bread between grocery deliveries. And… I run out of bread despite purchasing two loafs of bread. (I eat a lot of peanut butter and jelly sandwiches).
So, last week I was thinking to myself how nice it would be to be able to just bake my own bread in my apartment. I looked up what bread making machines, flour, etc. costs and it was crazy expensive. So… that idea is out…
This morning I was messaging back and forth with my friend who is also a video game developer. We only met a few weeks ago and discovered we were both Christians… so our friendship has grown centered around the video games we are making. We discovered the strange circumstance that we both live in the same city… well, he lives in a suburb of Toledo about 15 minutes by car away. He is married with children.
So… this morning we are talking and He says something about perhaps getting together. He asked if I could leave my apartment. I replied, “No.” I said that he is welcome to stop by and say hi anytime he’d like.
I joked to him, “And bring some bread when you come.” (cause I am once again out of bread and have no money to buy groceries at the moment)
He replied, “My wife bakes homemade bread. I’ll bring you some.”
So… in the next couple of days my new friend is going to bring me some homemade bread.
How does this relate to God?
You really have to follow the path of my journey to see all the moments God cares for me in an extremely personal way. He doesn’t just sit up in heaven watching to see if I’m doing right or wrong. He is actively involved in my daily care.
He cares about the things I care about.
This is the God I serve… a personal God who cares.
I never asked God for bread. He just provided for me on His own…
Don’t you see?
There are thousands of stories like this throughout my book series.
There are stories like this in the Undivided Purpose Project videos.
I serve a personal God.
He is my God and my friend.
He cares about things I don’t even pray about.
That is how much He loves me.
I certainly am far from perfect… I don’t deserve His love.
But through Jesus Christ… God has made a way for me, sinner that I am, to be in a personal relationship with Him, the God who created me and everything that exists.
My hope is that you will seek Him and find Him.
And you too can have a personal relationship with Him.
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Part 53: The Warrior’s Devotional
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Book Description: “The Warrior’s Devotional” is Part 53 of The Book Of Benjamin Kareth. This book is an exploration of the Armor of God and war that each follower of Jesus Christ faces in the supernatural world upon this earth in their lifetimes. Jesus won the victory on the cross and this book explores how we can have the victory in the battles we face by listening and obeying God’s Word.
A Glimpse Inside:
Chapter 3: Armies Of The Lord
As you and I venture forth to accomplish the good works that God has preordained for us to do on this earth in our lifetimes we must ask God to open our eyes to see His army that surrounds us always. Remember Elisha and his servant:
“Elisha answered, “Do not be afraid, for those who are with us are more than those who are with them.” Then Elisha prayed and said, “Lord, please, open his eyes that he may see.” And the Lord opened the servant’s eyes, and he saw; and behold, the mountain was full of horses and chariots of fire surrounding Elisha.” – 2 Kings 6:16-17 AMP
There is a temptation to forget what unseen fighting on our behalf all around us. God assigns His angels as ministering spirits to help those of us who will inherit salvation:
“Are not all the angels ministering spirits sent out [by God] to serve (accompany, protect) those who will inherit salvation? [Of course they are!]” – Hebrews 1:14 AMP
I have had many encounters with spiritual beings in my 42 years of life. From demons, to principalities, to guarding angels, and so on… I have encountered them and seen them with my spiritual eyes. I have shared many of these stories within the pages of this book series.
Angels and demons are described many times in the Word Of God and so we know that they are real. They have many roles: guardians, messengers, and heralds to name a few. God assigns them to us.
We are surrounded by our guardian angels who fight for us against the spiritual forces of darkness in this world. All this work is mostly hidden from us, and I think there is a reason for this. God protects us in this life from things that would be difficult for us to process… and that would hinder or distract us from where our focus should be.
Thinking about my encounters with both angels and demons, there has always been the veil between me and the spiritual world. I can see them and know what they are, but that vision is dim. I write periodically about them in this book series… when God instructs me to do so. But I do not think that this should be our focus in this life. Some make spiritual warfare a full-time ministry, but I cannot speak to that… it’s not within the bounds of my experience or calling.
What I can tell you is that we are instructed to prepare ourselves by putting on the full armor of God, which we will explore in this devotional at length, and we are to pray always and in every circumstance. Angels and demons are real. We are to walk before God doing what He has called us to do. We are to be aware of the spiritual forces around us. These things I know to be true.
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Designing Artwork To Support Ministry
It’s always strange to walk the paths of obedience to God and find yourself in the most unlikely of places. A couple of months ago God told me to “remain” in my apartment and not to leave. I was to stay inside to pray and work on writing the book series… in between those praying and writing times I’ve been working on a video game called “Day Of The Harvesters”:
In the course of working on the video game… I created some concept artwork for the alien race in the game… and from that concept art… I created a cute sticker:
And from this sticker… came an entire collection of sticker designs:
You can find these on RedBubble and Etsy.
Here are some of the products you can buy with my designs on RedBubble:
Paul made tents to support his calling of preaching the gospel… I guess I’ll keep designing cute animals to support the calling to finish writing the book series.
Again, obedience leads us to the strangest and most wonderful places.
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Part 52: The Letters To The Pastors Of The World
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Book Description: “The Letters To The Pastors Of The World” is Part 52 of The Book Of Benjamin Kareth. I have been asked by God to write letters to each of the Pastors of the world. I will listen and write what God speaks. These are the first letters written to the pastors, those who shepherd the flock of the Living God into all righteousness and truth, the “ones who will shine like the stars” of the world by me in obedience to the Lord.
A Glimpse Inside:
Letter 5: To Those With Pulpit In Mind,
Greetings in the name of Jesus Christ, the King of Kings, and the Lord of Lords. I am writing to you as I was called to do by the same King. This letter comes to you in all the love of the Father in heaven who is watching you today. He sends His greetings.
This is His word to you today:
“My desires I have placed in you by My own power and ability. I have stirred up in you the desire to share My Word with others. I have called and you have answered that call. Trust me to teach you all you need to know to do what I’ve called you to do. Trust Me for I am always faithful. Stay strong and lean on me. I will speak through you when you open your mouth so that the words you speak will carry with them My life. The pulpit is a place of humility and not to be taken lightly. I am watching and I am listening. Be worthy of the calling I have placed on your life.”
To those with pulpit in mind, I say, “A warning goes out and blessed are those who hear it. Take seriously the calling that rests on your life. Take seriously the responsibility of teacher and expounder of the good news of Jesus Christ. The Word judges those who hear it, not the other way around. The Word stands and those who hear it must respond to it. It is the rock and those who fall on it will be crushed. But it is a foundation stone for those who come to it with humility looking to be taught and instructed in the ways of the Lord. Be blessed in your journey by humbling yourself daily before the Lord and learning to sit at His feet to be taught and instructed. Lean on Him for all things and your path will be the path He has laid out for you.”
In the name of the King of kings, Jesus,
Grace and peace to you, Benjamin
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Part 51: Where All Journeys Stumble
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Book Description: “Where All Journeys Stumble” further continues the spiritual journey of a man that began in Part 1: Where All Journeys Begin and continued in Part 36: Where All Journeys Continue. In his continuing journey this man of faith finds himself on a very natural journey across his country to go to a place the Lord sends him to. Follow along on the next leg of the journey.
A Glimpse Inside:
Chapter 1: Reflection
I stood on the porch of my house looking out towards the road that ran past my house in the country. I held a cup of coffee in my favorite large mug. I shifted my hands on the mug and let the heat from it warm them against the chill morning country air. The steam from the hot coffee rose into the crisp, morning air. I wore my long-sleeved waffle shirt over a plain white t-shirt and a pair of my brightly colored flannel sleep pants. My feet were comfy in my fluffy, house shoes. I had gotten up around 5am well before the sun had even begun to rise into the sky. I pulled myself from my warm bed, started the coffee, and took a long hot shower. Being unemployed now I had not gotten dressed as I would have usually done but had opted to return to wearing my cozy sleeping clothes for the morning.
From the moment I opened my eyes I sensed this morning would be different; that something was coming. The world around me seemed alive as I had gone about my morning routine, but this morning was anything but routine. Today was the first day of me being unemployed in over ten years. I had put in my two weeks’ notice at my job two weeks and a day ago. No one at work had seemed sad that I was leaving, and no one had asked me why I was leaving. I gave this no thought whatsoever. I was a ghost in this world. I knew that well enough.
Yesterday, I gathered my things from my work desk into a small cardboard box at the end of the day. I looked around my desk for any other possessions but discovered that I had grabbed them all. The desk then looked sad and empty. I had carried the small box through the entire building without one person saying goodbye to me. God had asked me to quit my job weeks before and it had taken me a few days to obey Him and put my two weeks’ notice in. I had a bit of savings in my bank account so I knew I’d be ok for a couple of months but beyond that I would have to trust the Lord to provide for me.
As I stood there watching the sun rise on the horizon, I thought about the first journey the Lord had taken me on. Then I thought about the second journey through the life of Job. I thought about all the things I had seen and felt and wondered why it seemed that none of it had touched me. I had experienced such incredible things, yet my heart seemed untouched… and unchanged by it all. “But why?”, I wondered to myself. “Why don’t I feel different now?” My questions seemed to linger in my mind unanswered. I took a sip of the coffee and just enjoyed the feeling of it warming my insides.
I stretched myself and set the coffee mug down on the small table that sat to one side of my porch. I walked down the front steps and onto the wet, morning grass. The dew drenched my house shoes, but I gave that no thought. I walked around the corner of my house and stood to stare at the tree the Lord had planted to mark the journeys He had taken me on.
The tree now stood at my height. It looked somewhat like a Christmas tree, but I knew it wasn’t one. It was a species of tree that I had never seen before. Its branches stuck out from it proudly. Its leaves were soft but firm. “A tree.” I wondered to myself, “Why a tree to mark the progress of the journeys?”
I heard a car pass by on the road behind me going very fast but didn’t turn to watch it pass. My attention was on the tree. This tree was as much a mystery to me as anything else was in my life was. “It’s all mystery.”, I realized suddenly. God was mystery. My life was a mystery. All of it was a mystery. Only one thing I knew for certain: this journey was far from over. I had quit my job for this reason. God had spoken to me a few weeks ago that I needed to quit my job and be “free to travel” and “free to GO.” He had said. I thought about His words. Mystery. It had taken me a few days to obey Him and put my two weeks’ notice in. I worried that my savings wouldn’t be enough to pay my bills… but God would provide something that I knew.
“A tree,” I pondered again, “Why a tree?”
God spoke to my spirit in that moment, “Allow Me mystery.”
“I do.” I replied to him quietly. “I have obeyed you and quit my job.” I added.
“You have.” He said, his voice still and quiet. He always spoke so gently to me. I could feel the love in His words.
“Another journey today?” I asked. I wasn’t sure I was ready for another journey so soon, but I knew I couldn’t escape this path God had chosen for me. It seemed that my life was already planned out and that was ok with me. I trusted God to do His will in and through me in this life. Let it all be a mystery if that is what He wanted. Trusting Him didn’t remove the difficulty of the obedience. He didn’t ask easy things. He didn’t ask for seen things. He asked the impossible of me. Things that were too difficult for me. It was always His way.
“Not today.” He replied and I felt Him lift away before I could ask Him why or when.
“Not today.” His words echoed in my mind. “Ok, then…” I thought. “Not today.”
I turned and went back around the house and up onto the porch. I sat down in my chair next to the small table and picked up the mug of coffee. I took a drink of the cream-colored liquid. The warm coffee flowed through me waking me up just a little bit more. The old wooden chair creaked slightly as I rocked gently back and forth. I loved my simple mornings of quiet far from the business of the city. I wondered to myself how so many people missed out on the peace that comes from solitude, but then just as quickly a pang of loneliness struck my heart.
“Can there be a balance between people and solitude?” I asked myself aloud. I listened to see if an answer would come but none did. I let out a sigh and resigned it to mystery once again.
The sun was rising over the hills beyond the road. I watched as it slowly rose, the rays of sunlight bathed the scene in front of me. I had to shield my eyes from the brightness that soon drenched everything. It was a glorious sight and one that I enjoyed as often as I could. I took another sip of the coffee and just enjoyed the sugary bitter taste of it. I sighed a gentle sigh of contentment. Peace seemed everywhere around me this morning… but yet there was that sense that something was coming. I glanced down at my watch and saw the time was now 6:44am. If I still had my job, I’d be pulling into the parking garage now and looking for a parking space. I asked myself if I missed work and decided that I didn’t. Work was work and there would always be more to do someday. “What is work anyway?” I asked myself aloud. My voice echoed off the porch and startled some birds in a nearby bush who flew away quickly. I continued to rock and sip my coffee which was almost gone. I thought about going inside but something… something was keeping me here… so I continued to watch the sun rise over the horizon above the trees beyond the road.
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