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Dancing On Raindrops
Hello everyone! I just wanted to share that my mom, Liz Adleta, has begun posting regularly on Substack as she works towards getting her book “Dancing On Raindrops” published soon. It’s a book telling the story of her life. I’ve read her book and it is amazing, well-written, and full of encouraging stories from the mission field around the world.
Here is a bit of her latest post for you to enjoy:
“…After sharing my welcome message, I found myself thinking about the many storms that marked my life, perhaps your life too? Some troubles we brought on ourselves, we may blame others for some, and perhaps even blame God. If you’ve lived long enough, you know that joy isn’t always obvious in any of these. Sometimes it hides behind disappointment, heartache, betrayal, or simple exhaustion. And yet, again and again through the years, I’m learning that joy is not something we chase through circumstances or even through other people. Joy is something, or Someone, rather, that we fix our eyes upon. The Scriptures say that Jesus endured the cross “for the joy set before Him” (Hebrews 12:2). It wasn’t the people, or the nails or the cruelty or the injustice that held Him there. It was joy — the joy of rescuing us, redeeming us, restoring us to fellowship with Himself and with the Father. The joy of knowing us, loving us, and bringing many sons and daughters home…” – Liz Adleta
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Part 34: The Ninth Witness Testament
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Book Description: “The Ninth Witness Testament” is the telling of the continuing journey of Benjamin Potéxaná Kareth. This book chronicles Benjamin’s journey from a farm in nowhere Texas to a little town somewhere in the middle of the United States of America in obedience to the Lord. Benjamin’s journey into deep solitude continues deeper and deeper with all the mystery and loneliness that comes along with it.
A Glimpse Inside:
Chapter 9: Hidden Away, Small-Town America
June 12th, 2023 – 6:17pm – In Solitude, Abiding In Obscurity:
How to catch you up? Let me back up and try to tell the full story of the journey from there to here.
One week ago, in obedience to the Lord, I boarded an airplane leaving Dallas, TX. I landed in a city and had an overnight layover and then flew to another city. In that city I boarded an Amtrak train. I traveled for two days aboard that train and then took another train. Halfway through that train trip I disembarked and boarded two buses and an Uber ride to finally land in a small town in a state I have never lived in before. The population of this city is small. It is quaint… homey. The people here so far are very friendly. God provided a place to stay. A small room in a small motel. It is cozy.
Along the journey here I met many people and had some crazy adventures for sure. Never a dull moment serving the Lord. I got food poisoning along the way and spent my first day in this town in bed unable to move. Today I am finally feeling better.
I began to work on the books again today. And that is going well. There is a clearness to the air here spiritually. God has me right where He wants me. I feel that this will be the place I am while I finish this book series. I’ll write 72 books in this small town. This is where I’ll complete The Book Of Benjamin Kareth.
What an amazing God we serve! I left behind everything I owned so I need many things financially. I need a laptop to work on and clothes and food. But God will provide one day at a time.
My responsibility is to complete this book series. It is to be my sole focus for the next four years. I considered getting a job here to provide for myself, but God has clearly said that isn’t what He wants for me. I am to continue the Seven 7s schedule and complete this book series. So, I will trust Him to provide for me day by day. I am praying that He will raise up supporters to support the journey until it’s complete. I am unable to post anything to the blog or reach out to anyone for help. So, I am alone here with the Lord. It’s just me and Him… for the next four years.
I reflect that He has prepared me every step of the way the past 5 years. Moment-by-moment He has been preparing me for this. That’s what He does… He truly is a good, good Father!
I can feel it you know. I can feel His great love for me. I can sense and feel the flowing of the Holy Spirit in and around me here. I see what He has planned and trust that He has everything in His hands. I am so overwhelmed with gratitude to Him for this calling that is on my life. I get to be alone with Him and share what He tells me with you along the way. Who could want anything else as a calling from the Lord? The high cost of everything and everyone is so worth it! Every year I cry from loneliness is worth it… why? Because of you, my friend. I get to die so that you can have something from the Lord.
If you look throughout the scriptures, you can see it… how God works in and through His prophets. This is nothing new. Just God once again offering life to people through someone who has offered their life to Him.
I am humbled to be so called. What is God calling you to? Are you ready to give it all to Him? Are you ready to be sent to the ends of the earth to accomplish God’s purposes? Are you willing to die so that God can be known? It’s time to say Yes. What does tomorrow hold for me here in small town America? I do not know. But I do know the One who holds all my tomorrows.
Chapter 51: Unto Death
August 24th, 2023 – 9:26pm – In Solitude, Abiding In Obscurity in Small-town America:
God has asked me to write everything I experience down as best I can in these pages for you to have and to hold and to read or listen to. The good and the bad and everything in between. The difficulties and the journey and the obedience and the loneliness.
What does it all add up to in the end? Simply this… my journey has been, is, and will continue to be about Knowing Him and making Him known. Isn’t that love? Isn’t that what being a true follower of Jesus all about? Loving God and loving people.
Tonight, I lay in bed… pondering the past 5 years. Listening and speaking with God. Oh, how living He is toward me. How gentle He is with my heart!
I am so tired and weary and drained from this journey. The endless miles traveled. The loneliness that seems ever present. The not understanding that seems prevalent. But the one thing that remains my solid God is His voice. His still, small voice… urging me onward.
Tonight, He showed me again all the people that my life has impacted over these past five years. All the people I have met and talked to and shared Him with. Each and every single one of them and the ripples outward of God’s love pouring through me… through all my broken cracks… through this clay jar.
He is teaching me what humility is. What a hard lesson that. It is sadly a lesson that many never come to experience or learn in their lives. I see it new now… humility. What I once thought it was… wasn’t it at all. The truth of it is this… humility is being devoid of self-righteousness… it is the “unto death” that is the journey of taking up our cross, whatever that be, and wearily step-by-step walking down the path that leads us to our deaths. Do you see it? Can you see it? Don’t turn away now. Don’t shut the book. Don’t turn off the audio book. Just listen. Just open your eyes and see what God is trying to say to your heart of hearts.
I have this broken voice and these fumbling words with which to try to show you WHO God is… who He really is. My feeble attempts to tell you that God loves you and that He has your very best in His mind. Keep walking forward. Keep on going. Keep on listening and obeying Him. The prize is Him. That’s the message I was given by Him to speak into this world. It is not a message that I have ever heard in all my life before. But it is a message that you can’t really hear or see before you really experience Him for yourself. His world is not this world. His ways are not our ways. His will is not our will. His love is beyond anything we can or will ever experience here. All we can have are glimpses… but those glimpses should urge us onward unto death.
God is so much more than love. He is beyond love. Unitary in His being. He is… all. I could write a thousand books speaking of Him and still never get close to even touching WHO He is. But what I can say… is that He IS the prize. All came from Him. All is in Him. All will return to Him. All in all. He is. And because He is, we are.
The truth is that I am more broken than I have ever been before. I am weaker than I have ever been before. I am less than I have ever been. I am not more known. I am not wealthy. But… I have all. I have Him. In Jesus I have all things. Why? Because I have the One who is all. There is nothing that God would not give me… not one thing. I see that now so clearly. But my prayer has been that He would use my life to point to Him. And so… He has crushed me under the weights of suffering and loneliness. He has taken my lifetime and time again and stripped it bare of the things of this world. I didn’t understand it along the way… how could I have! I was blind. But now I see. I was lost but now I am found. I won’t be known on this earth in my lifetime, but I am known completely by Him.
Like a spoiled child I have clung to many things that I thought I needed to be happy. I held onto things thinking that some who they held the meaning of my life. That somehow, they gave me identity and purpose. But they were empty and ended in death.
I cannot walk your journey with God for you. I cannot make your choices for you. I can only tell you what I have come to know and hope that somehow God opens your ears and eyes to see Him as I do. To come to understand and to know Him personally as I do.
There will come a day when your life ends. It will either be sudden, or you will see it coming. In that moment all the things you held so tightly to will be nothing. Have you ever considered this? Have you ever thought of this? Have you ever sat and really weighed your life? Homeless or rich. Fed or hungry. Fat or thin. All of these things will be stripped away, and you will stand before God alone. No one will stand with you that day. You will face Him. And He will ask you what you did in your life to love. To love Him and to love others. What will your answer be?
If you’ve traveled the pages of my books and come to this chapter, then you’ve read of my journey. With all its ups and downs… ins and outs. One thing I am confident of is that these books speak of Him. And that is all I can hope for with the days I have left. That in every moment my smile, and laughter, and kindness, and words, point to the God who first loved me.
I am not the man I was five years ago. I am not the man I was yesterday. I am not the man I will be tomorrow. God is at work in my life to will and to do His good pleasure. One day at a time. From glory to glory. From goodness to goodness. Suffering and loneliness have been His tools to mold my heart and mind into His likeness… into the likeness of Christ. I am misunderstood. I am rejected. I am alone. Outcast. Far from friends and family. He is at work in me to do what He alone wants. This is the journey. This is the path. This is the way of the cross of Christ. Broad is the way that leads to destruction and death, but narrow is the way that leads to life.
My righteousness isn’t my own, but my right-standing with God is through Christ. My merit is Jesus. He is my salvation. And it is through Him alone that I live and breathe and have my being. This is active now… and has been active since I accepted Him as my savior. Heaven has come to bear on my life. I see it… now more than ever before.
So, seek Him and you’ll discover what I have discovered. He is the prize. It’s what Jesus said in all He said over and over again. I am the way, the truth, and the life. No man comes to the Father but through me. What does tomorrow hold? I don’t know. But I know who holds my tomorrows. I know the One… and He has sent me to the one. This is my testimony. This is my faith. This is all mine because I belong to Him. Do you?
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Part 33: Once More A Distinction
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Book Description: What does it mean to be Holy (set apart) from the world? How do you become distinguished from those who are living for this world as ones who love and serve God? What does it look like to travel the lonely roads of obedience to God? What does it mean to truly require God as an absolute necessity?
This book is an exploration of holiness and distinction. By the end of this book my hope is that you will have a clearer picture of what is required of you as a follower of Jesus Christ. My hope is that God will open your eyes to see the apostasy and hypocrisy in your own life and learn how-to walk-in holiness and faithfulness to God in this dark world. My prayer is that God would fill you with understanding and wisdom in how to be faithful to Him alone.
A Glimpse Inside:
Chapter 9: Fear Of Being Alone
The fear of being alone in this world is about as powerful as the fear of man over our hearts. It is a deceitful fear, a subtle fear that can work in us without us being aware of its working. It is a poison that is fed to us by this world and the people that live in this world. For those of us who have accepted Jesus Christ into our heart we are never alone for He has said:
“Be strong and courageous, do not be afraid or tremble in dread before them, for it is the Lord your God who goes with you. He will not fail you or abandon you.”” – Deuteronomy 31:6 AMP As we step out and choose to serve God we will face being alone. We must because it is part of our training and spiritual growth in our walk with God. God is spirit and those who come to Him must believe that He is. This cannot be learned among people… it can only be learned when we are alone with Him.
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Part 32: A Lifestyle Of Waiting
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Book Description: In our modern world we give little thought to our lifestyle, how we live our daily lives, or the thought patterns that govern our minds and our hearts as we go about our days.
How often do we check in on our attitudes? How often do we take a good hard look at our inner world and see if our thoughts and attitudes are lining up with what pleases God?
This book is an exploration of a Lifestyle Of Waiting on God. It is an exploration on how to foster and grow in that Lifestyle Of Waiting on God.
A Glimpse Inside:
Chapter 10: Recognizing The Empty Places
Embracing a lifestyle of Waiting on God requires us to examine ourselves and find all the empty places within us. These empty places, the places we strive to fill with all the pleasures of this world, are the places that God wants to fill in us. He wants to come and give us life and life more abundantly. He is the answer to every question we have and the One who fills all our lack. In Him we have no lack.
It is in the place of waiting on Him that all our empty places are filled by His Holy Spirit. Are you lonely? Draw near to the Lord and let Him fill You with His Holy Spirit. Let Him wrap His arms around you and hold you close to Himself. Listen for His still small voice in the quiet places to be renewed and strengthened in His love. He is THE priceless treasure. He is the living waters that fill us to overflowing! He is life and He is life more abundant.
God is not like anything on this earth. The things of this world do not satisfy our hearts, only God can satisfy us if we allow Him to. All our endless searching ends in Him. It is harder to come to this final conclusion as we battle our flesh in this world. The flesh, our fallen nature in us, that wages a war against the Holy Spirit of God. This is the conflict we will have until we are finally resurrected into eternal life in heaven with God and made new.
Chapter 18: Waiting In Want
Today, I am sitting in a mostly empty apartment on the floor of an empty room writing this chapter. A Lifestyle Of Waiting will always find us on our knees before the Lord and it will train us that whether we have or do not have we still depend on the Lord. He is our all. He is our all when we have nothing, and He is our all when we have everything. Our life circumstances do not change our need to wait on God. We owe all we have to Him and so we must learn to continue to wait on Him as we journey through this life. This is part of our personal preparation for how life will be eternally with God, when all we are flows from Him.
There is a difference between need and want. Want in this chapter is not speaking of needs, those vital things we must have for life, but it is speaking of wants, the things we want to have or think we need to have to be happy. The truth is that nothing in this world can make us happy or satisfy us. Only God can truly satisfy our deepest desires. But you can’t just one day understand this… you must walk the path of the cross. You must die to your own ways and your own will. You must listen and obey Him. As you do these things, He will lead you down the path He has uniquely planned for your life. And it is a path that only You and He can walk together. You cannot walk it alone. Not for one moment can you run ahead of Him or fall behind Him. You must remain in His presence to fulfill all He has planned for your life. So, when you want something, consider if that thing will bring you closer to God or push you further away. Is it of His kingdom or of the kingdom of this world? Does it glorify Him and build up your body and mind? Most often when we want something we find that once we have gained it, we are right where we were before we had it. This is the truth. Think about this and ponder it. Ask God to show you the truth of all this and to lead you in the way you should go.
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Part 31: Listen And Obey
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Book Description: What does it mean to “Listen And Obey”? How do we listen to what God would say to us and then how do we obey what He is asking us to do? This book attempts to help us answer these questions.
The purpose of recording my journey in this book series is so that you can see both the steps of obedience taken and not taken as well as see the results of that obedience and the results of the disobedience.
I can tell you of my own journey as I’ve listened to and obeyed what God has asked me to do as I’ve walked with Him. I can tell you the results of that obedience or the consequences of my disobedience, but it is up to God to use what I share to encourage your journey with Him.
A Glimpse Inside:
Chapter 10: Obedience, As Spiritual Maturity
In this modern world of ours we want everything yesterday. We want everything now and seek to have it all now. But the truth is that nothing in this world worth having is given instantly, except salvation through Jesus Christ.
Obedience is the catalyst for the development of spiritual maturity in our lives. Without obedience we cannot grow, we cannot mature in our walk with God, and we cannot become who God created us to be.
Spiritual maturity is not instant, but it is developed moment-by-moment, hour-by-hour, and day-by-day through our experiences as we obey God and see the results of that obedience play out in our lives and hearts and in the lives and hearts of those around us. When we choose to obey God, we are laying our lives in His hands and then He is able to lead us through circumstances and experiences that develop godly character in us. Without obedience spiritual maturity is impossible.
The enemies of obedience are selfishness and pride. Pride must be broken in our hearts, and it must be continually broken in our hearts. As long as we are alive in this sin-filled world we are easy prey for our selfish and prideful hearts without the continual mercy and grace of God at work in us.
Six months ago, God instructed me to begin to write in a new schedule, the Seven 7s, as I call it. I write 7 times a day: 7am, 9am, 11am, 1pm, 3pm, 5pm, and 7pm. He also instructed me to pray at each of these times and with this instruction came the knowledge of how I was to pray: on my face before Him. I must say this was very weird and strange in the beginning. I would close the curtains and get on my knees and plant my face on the ground. It was… humbling. And the moment I realized it was humbling to my pride and heart I knew why God instructed me this way. I obeyed God in this and what an incredible difference it has made in my life.
The Word of God says:
“Humble yourselves [with an attitude of repentance and insignificance] in the presence of the Lord, and He will exalt you [He will lift you up, He will give you purpose].” – James 4:10 AMP
Meditate on this scripture for a few moments. Do you see it? Do you see the hidden treasure it contains?
This book series God has asked me to write is not mine. These books are not building my kingdom. They are not for my glory. They are for the building of God’s kingdom and for the instruction of His children. It is through me planting my face on the ground that this truth really sinks in. As I bow before the Lord, I feel the pride in my heart being crushed. It is amazing and also wonderfully freeing. The tyranny of my rebellious heart is humbled and forced into submission to the Lord.
Oh, please hear this! If I had not continued to obey the Lord, I would not have experienced any of this, I would not have grown in my spiritual walk with Him. My spiritual maturity would have been stunted. But because I continue to listen and continue to obey, God is raising me up like a child in the way I should go.
The most amazing thing about this whole journey is that when I complete this book series, I get to lay it all down at His feet and walk on. Do you see it? I will be able to say, “What I was asked to do I did.” Then I can lay all this work down at His feet as an offering to Him and walk onward toward whatever He has for me next.
This must be the attitude of all of our hearts as we walk forward in obedience to Him. Everything, absolutely everything is from Him, done through Him, and returns to Him. Nothing is ours and yet we have it all through Christ. Can you see it yet?
The truth I know now with all my heart is that I have everything because I have Jesus Christ. I own everything. God withholds no good thing from me. Wisdom. Knowledge. Skill. Talent. Understanding. Wealth. Glory. Absolutely everything is truly available to me as God sees fit to grant it. But I do not need any of it… I have Him. And with Him I have all things. Oh, if only you could see it and understand it. Grasp this one thing: He is the prize. He is the pearl of great price. He is the treasure hidden in the field. Sell everything you have to buy Him. Give up your life in this world to gain what you can never lose. Seek Him and keep on seeking Him.
Obedience is the key to His heart. I can say this with absolute certainty through my experiences with Him. I obey Him because I love Him because He first loved me. He is my good Father and I trust that what He is asking me to do is for His glory and for my greatest good both on this earth and in the eternities of eternity to come. This is spiritual maturity: To know God through personal experience. Anything good I have God gave to me and I give it back to Him. I have both everything and nothing all at once. If you really open your eyes and behold Jesus Christ, then you will know Him too.
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Part 30: The Book Of The Cries Of Loneliness
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Book Description: “The Book Of The Cries Of Loneliness” is a book that God asked me to write. In the midst of this journey that God has called me into I have found there is a sweetness to the loneliness of my heart. The deep loneliness that burns in my heart each day draws me closer to the Lord. The loneliness reminds me that I am not alone, God is with me. Each time the tears fall and the pain swells in my heart, each time I look out the window and think of all the people, the married ones, the kids with their friends, I remember that this is temporary. I am also reminded that there are others like me who are alone or feel alone. It’s a terrible feeling… an almost helpless pain. And it is a pain that drives us into so many dark places in an attempt to take that pain away. This book has been written for anyone who feels alone, lonely, or hopeless. This book is my gift to you. It is a collection of writings, poems, and psalms expressing loneliness. I know that when you listen to them, you’ll realize you’re not alone in this world. God is with me, and He is with you as well. Welcome to The Book Of The Cries Of Loneliness.
A Glimpse Inside:
Chapter 1: Have You Forgotten Me?
Another day has dawned,
And I wake into the quiet,
The stillness,
I look at my phone,
And it’s empty,
Void,
No messages,
Is no one thinking of me?
Then I remember that You have called me to be here,
In this quiet and still place.
Have You Forgotten Me?
Cast me aside from the world?
Am I not worthy of a life like others have?
I stand at the window,
And look out at the world,
Oh look!
There is a married couple,
Dancing a dance together by a fireplace,
And there that father is fishing with his kids,
And that mother there at the park, the swing going back and forth,
And look, a group of friends laughing and talking as they pass by,
And the burning tears fall,
First one,
Then another,
Then the damn breaks and the sobs roll,
I press my hand against the glass,
Bow my head and cry,
Lord, Have You Forgotten Me?
In this quiet and still place!
Have You Forgotten Me?
Cast me aside from the world?
Am I not worthy of a life like others have?
Then I remember that You have called me to be here,
I remember you asked me to get away alone with you,
To listen to your still, small voice,
Your whisper,
To spend some time with you,
And I ask myself, “Is that enough?”
Oh, the shame,
To feel this way,
Forgive me Father,
And now I just sob,
And you draw close again,
Wrap your strong arms around me,
And just hold me as I cry,
As I die,
I said anything for you,
I offered you everything,
And here I am,
Doing what you’ve asked,
The cost,
Everything,
Lord, will it be worth it?
Show me,
Encourage me,
Lift me up and stand me firm on the rock of your will,
Let me finish the work you’ve called me to do!
Let me listen and write the words you say,
This is all on you,
But here I am again,
Offering everything!
Take it all!
These tears are my offering to you,
Let them be like a sweet incense to you,
This dying to myself, And living for you.
Chapter 52: The Impossible
I’m so lonely,
So impossibly lonely,
So alone,
Not belonging to one world,
OR the other,
Just here,
You asked me,
You asked this of me,
You knew I’d say “Yes” to You,
And I did,
But this,
This impossible journey,
This lonely road,
This Solitude,
This Obscurity,
The tears,
The endless,
Lonely,
Tears,
Why is this the road I must walk?
Why is this the journey You asked of me?
I look behind,
No one follows,
I look ahead,
And no one comes into view,
Beside be,
Walks no one,
Just You,
Always with me,
Always,
But my heart aches,
And my eyes burn,
Impossible,
Impossible,
Hold me tightly Father,
Tightly all the way home,
To be forever Yours,
With the world in tow,
If this is the way,
Your way for me,
Then I’ll walk it, Alone.
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Part 29: The First Book Of Prayers
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Book Description: “The First Book Of Prayers” is a book that God asked me to write. In it He wanted me to write out prayers to Him. I didn’t know what it would look like when it was complete, but I obeyed. As I began to write it, I began to understand the purpose of the book more. This is a book of prayers for others to pray. It is also a deep glimpse into how I pray personally. It is my heart speaking to my heavenly Father. Contained within are 60 prayers making various requests of the Living God.
A Glimpse Inside:
Chapter 3: For Thy Will
“Father, I thank you that you always hear me when I pray and cry out to you.
I need your grace, your unmerited favor to fill my life today in this very moment. I ask for your wisdom to flood every part of my heart and mind. Grant me access to your throne of grace through Jesus Christ. I choose to enter boldly into your throne room and bow my whole being before you Father. Here I am, presenting all I am, to ask that your will would be done on earth as it is in heaven. I lay down my own will and surrender my own thoughts and dreams before you. I give you every part of me, both the good and the bad, my strengths and my weaknesses. Conform my will to yours. Show me and make it clear to me which thoughts are my thoughts and which are yours so that I can choose yours today. Show me any idols I have set up in my heart and allow me the strength to smash them today. I choose to worship and serve you alone today. I want no other God’s in my life. I do not want to please myself, but I want to serve you. I want your will to be done and I want to walk in your ways.
So, today I simply ask that your will would be done in me. I ask this in Jesus’ name. Amen!”
Chapter 4: For Healing
“Father, I thank you that you always hear me when I pray and cry out to you.
Father, I come to you today needing healing. I need healing in my mind and in my heart and in my body today. I need you to heal all the broken places in me. I look to you alone as my Healer. You are my Source. You created me from nothing. You know every part of me. And so, I need your touch today.
I am asking you to heal my mind today. Heal all the wrong ways that I think. Heal my thoughts and bring them into obedience to you. Heal my attitudes and my judgements. Fill my mind with compassion and love for others. Convict me when I am thinking thoughts that are not in line with Your Word. Let my mind be stayed on You. Heal my mind Father!
I am asking you to heal my heart today. Heal all the pain and brokenness in me. Mend the broken places that relationships have destroyed. Forgive me when I have caused pain to others, and I choose to forgive others as they have caused me pain. I let go of my need to be avenged and I put that into your hands. Father, I forgive those who have hurt me. I ask that You heal them and forgive them. I ask that you forgive and heal me. Create in me a right heart. A heart that loves You and that loves others. Give my heart Your peace each and every day. Let me feel your love and let that love of yours overflow in me to others around me. Show me new ways to love others as You would love them. Let me be your hands and feet in this world.
I am asking you to heal my body today. Father, it seems that each new day something in this body of mine breaks or is broken. I am asking that You would heal me today. I trust You and the power of Your love to heal the brokenness in this body of mine. I ask that you’d heal me and make me whole today.
Father, I thank you that You always hear my prayers. I thank you that my prayers are pleasing to You. I ask that You give me hope and a future. Show me why you created me. Give me purpose and give me grace today.
In Jesus name I pray, Amen.”
Chapter 47: For Simplicity
“Father, I thank you that you always hear me when I pray and cry out to you.
Father, You have created such a vast and varied world filled with all the wonders You created for us. I thank You for my life. Today, I want to ask You to remind me to live humbly and simply before You. Give me wisdom as I live my life day by day and show me how to just simply bow before You as I trust You to continue to do Your work in my life.
Father, I want to love You and to love those You’ve put in my life. But Father, I don’t know how to love as I should. Can You teach me what love is? Can You train my heart in love and in life? Can You give me strength to focus on the simple things that show others I care for them?
Thank You again for sending Jesus to die for me. Thank You for that ultimate act of love. Allow me to, in some simple ways, to show You return Your love for me by loving others around me.
I ask and pray all this in Jesus’ name. Amen!”
Table Of Contents
Chapter 1: What Is Prayer? 34
Chapter 2: The First Prayer 36
Chapter 3: For Thy Will 39
Chapter 4: For Healing 41
Chapter 5: For Family 44
Chapter 6: For The Bride Of Christ 47
Chapter 7: For The City 49
Chapter 8: For The Country 51
Chapter 9: For The Earth 53
Chapter 10: For Wisdom 55
Chapter 11: For Humility 58
Chapter 12: For Eternal Mindedness 61
Chapter 13: For Hearing 63
Chapter 14: For Obedience 65
Chapter 15: For Mercy 67
Chapter 16: For Provision 69
Chapter 17: For The Lost 72
Chapter 18: For Peace 74
Chapter 19: For Forgiveness 76
Chapter 20: For Guidance 78
Chapter 21: For Blessing 80
Chapter 22: For The Journey 82
Chapter 23: For Protection 84
Chapter 24: For Understanding 85
Chapter 25: For The Kingdom 87
Chapter 26: For Restoration 89
Chapter 27: For Comfort 91
Chapter 28: For Revival 93
Chapter 29: For Faith 94
Chapter 30: For Fruit 96
Chapter 31: For Abundance 98
Chapter 32: For Love 100
Chapter 33: For Changing Seasons 102
Chapter 34: For Eyes That See The Truth 104
Chapter 35: For Being A Faithful Witness 106
Chapter 36: For Spiritual Awakening 108
Chapter 37: For The Cross 110
Chapter 38: For The Breaking Of Strongholds 112
Chapter 39: For More Of The Holy Spirit 114
Chapter 40: For Your Arms To Hold Me 116
Chapter 41: For Your Return 118
Chapter 42: For Holiness 120
Chapter 43: For Goodness 122
Chapter 44: For Patience 124
Chapter 45: For Surrender 125
Chapter 46: For Empathy 127
Chapter 47: For Simplicity 128
Chapter 48: For Abounding Energy 130
Chapter 49: For Insight 132
Chapter 50: For An Outflow Of Grace 134
Chapter 51: For Solitude 136
Chapter 52: For Obscurity 138
Chapter 53: For More 140
Chapter 54: For The Deeper Things 142
Chapter 55: For Identity 145
Chapter 56: For A Grieving Friend 147
Chapter 57: For Words 149
Chapter 58: For Long-Suffering 151
Chapter 59: For Joy 153
Chapter 60: For Happiness 155
Chapter 61: For Completion 160
Chapter 62: The Final Prayer 162
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Part 28: The First Book Of Celebration
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Book Description: This book is a celebration of the King of Heaven, the Ruler Of The Universe. Within are a collection of poems and writings celebrating God the Father, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit. They are my book of Psalms. They are my Selah, the fragrant Shalom, my hands raised high in adoration of the only One who is worthy of any praise or worship.
They are meant to be read as encouragement and to aid people in their own personal discovery and worship of God. This book contains 60 poems and short writings of celebration.
A Glimpse Inside:
Chapter 10: Until Then I Bow
With hands and face to the earth,
I bow,
With created heart and mind,
I bow,
Before you Lord,
Before you Lord!
I hear the cry of the ages!
I see the glory from your throne!
I bow!
I bow down!
I bow low!
Holy! Holy! Holy!
High and lifted up!
You are high and lifted up!
Let all the earth praise You!
Let writers write of You!
Let singers sing of You!
Let everyone give what they have and cast their crowns at your feet!
I wonder! And awe!
Brilliant and radiant light spills from you!
Holy One! I bow!
Chapter 29: Today With You
I thought adventure was out there,
Among the crowds,
Along the highways,
Under the lights,
But I found You,
And now,
I found the Creator of adventure,
In the stillness,
In the quiet place,
In the closet,
Shutting out the world,
All the noise,
And I find You waiting,
You whisper,
And I draw nearer,
And You draw nearer.
And your wings cover over me,
And your shield rises before me,
And your strong arms surround me,
And I’m safe,
And loved,
And held,
And I belong,
And your eyes say you’ll never leave,
And your voice sounds like laughter,
And your joy is infectious,
Infecting me with laughter,
Hidden away with You,
I find You.
And today with You is all I want.
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Faith, Obedience, And Feelings
I woke this morning into the early morning hours to glance at the phone screen that read 2:20am. Ugh! This is the time I’ve been waking for the past month and half in this apartment. I go to bed between 7pm-8pm. I know I’m getting enough sleep but it never quite FEELS like it.
As I sat on the edge of my bed trying to wake up, God softly spoke to me and said, “Write about faith and feelings.”
My first reaction to His words was, of course, “Ugh, I don’t FEEL like doing that.”
I proceeded to make coffee, take a hot shower, and get myself ready for a new day. While I was going about my morning routing I was thinking about what God had asked me. I was processing my FEELINGS about His request and realized then that I was processing my processing of my reactions to my FEELINGS. I had to laugh at myself a few times this morning… I knew that I would OBEY His request despite how I FELT about it. And that line of thinking led me down the paths of this journey far back beyond when God rescued me and into the hell I was living in before. Then my thoughts traveled further back into my college years. Then my thoughts traveled even further back into my chaotic teens… then finally my thoughts settled into the years of my childhood.
I began to travel the paths of the journey of my life from the perspective of FEELINGS, FAITH, and OBEDIENCE… and what a journey of discovery that was.
FAITH is not a FEELING we FEEL.
And of course we must revisit the definition of FAITH here, as given in the Word of God:
“Now faith is the assurance (title deed, confirmation) of things hoped for (divinely guaranteed), and the evidence of things not seen [the conviction of their reality—faith comprehends as fact what cannot be experienced by the physical senses].” – Hebrews 11:1
I love the Amplified Version of the Word of God for this passage. Listen to this part here: FAITH comprehends as fact what cannot be experienced by the physical senses.
So, to further explore the topics of FEELINGS, FAITH, AND OBEDIENCE… we next must explore what FEELINGS are.
FEELINGS are described as an emotional state or reaction, a belief, especially a vague or irrational one, or a sensitivity to or intuitive understanding of.
If you explore the Word of God, the disobedience of people can almost always be linked with their choosing to listen to their “FEELINGS” instead of the voice, commands, and character of God. Or, if you prefer, they chose to listen to their physical senses instead of having FAITH in God. Of course it is no different today.
Think on your life for a moment. Travel the paths that you’ve walked since birth. I think you’ll find that when you trusted your FEELINGS, your physical senses, over trusting the Word of God, you were walking away from God, and when you chose to trust God, choosing to live by FAITH (trusting in the character and word of God) and not by sight (trusting your physical senses, FEELINGS), you were walking towards God.
FEELINGS = walking away from God.
FAITH = walking toward God.
Any kind of decision making that holds the word “I” in it will lead us away from God.
Any kind of decision making that holds the word “God” in it will lead us toward God.
The distinction here is between the “I FEEL…” statements vs the “God says…” statements.
What is “Eternal Life“?
At some point we will all have to come face-to-face with our FAITH.
So, what better time is there than right now?…
Listen to what Jesus Christ said:
“Now this is ETERNAL LIFE: that they may know You, the only true [supreme and sovereign] God, and [in the same manner know] Jesus [as the] Christ whom You have sent.” – John 17:3
Jesus explain it in a parable for us later… the one where He would say, “Get away from Me I never knew you.” or He will say, “Enter into paradise, good and faithful servant.”
Do you know God the Father and do you know His Son who He sent as your Messiah?
If you do, you already have “Eternal Life“, and if you don’t, well… you have whatever the opposite of “Eternal Life” is.
Living FAITH produces OBEDIENCE to God leading to ETERNAL LIFE. FEELINGS lead us to sin and ultimately death.
We humans have this amazing ability to deceive ourselves, to rationalize our FEELINGS, to set aside our FAITH for later, perhaps at some future point in time when we FEEL more like obeying God. After all, aren’t we still living? Haven’t we lived this long? Won’t we wake tomorrow? So, there is always time to obey God tomorrow… when we FEEL like it.
The narrow gate is there for us to choose to enter in by it and travel the narrow paths of obedience to God’s Word… but few are they that travel that path.
If you managed to read this far… and not clicked away… perhaps there is hope for you yet.
God rescued me in my darkest day. He broke into the horrible mess I had made with my life, following my feelings, and pulled me out of that place I had led myself into. He placed me on the narrow path of OBEDIENCE to His Word.
People have called my journey obeying God as “radical”, “crazy”, or whatever else that they come up with… but the truth is… my journey is just the normal journey of FAITH in God’s Word and obedience to Jesus Christ.
Jesus Christ, the Son of God, God Himself, the God you profess to know and follow, said this:
“Then Jesus said to His disciples, “If anyone wishes to follow Me [as My disciple], he must deny himself [set aside selfish interests], and take up his cross [expressing a willingness to endure whatever may come] and follow Me [believing in Me, conforming to My example in living and, if need be, suffering or perhaps dying because of faith in Me]. For whoever wishes to save his life [in this world] will [eventually] lose it [through death], but whoever loses his life [in this world] for My sake will find it [that is, life with Me for all eternity]. For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world [wealth, fame, success], but forfeits his soul? Or what will a man give in exchange for his soul?” – Matthew 16:24
On the darkest day of my life, God broke in and said, “Now you are going to LISTEN and OBEY.”
His instruction were clear, His command undeniable.
I was to LISTEN to His Words and by FAITH walk in OBEDIENCE to Him.
It’s funny how He didn’t mention my FEELINGS once.
I have a little over two years left of this journey. I plan to LISTEN and walk in OBEDIENCE to God’s voice the best that I can until I have cross the finish line of this race that God has assigned me to.
What’s your plan?
I’ll leave you with this verse:
“But continually encourage one another every day, as long as it is called “Today” [and there is an opportunity], so that none of you will be hardened [into settled rebellion] by the deceitfulness of sin [its cleverness, delusive glamour, and sophistication]. For we [believers] have become partakers of Christ [sharing in all that the Messiah has for us], if only we hold firm our newborn confidence [which originally led us to Him] until the end, while it is said, “TODAY [while there is still opportunity] IF YOU HEAR HIS VOICE, DO NOT HARDEN YOUR HEART, AS WHEN THEY PROVOKED ME [in the rebellion in the desert at Meribah].” – Hebrews 3:13-15
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Part 27: The Second Collection Of Parables
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Book Description: This is the second collection of parables given to me by the Holy Spirit. They are presented here in the order in which they were given. This book contains 60 parables (short stories).
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Chapter 13: The Storyteller
Once in a particular and very peculiar kingdom there lived a storyteller. He was very old, no one knew how old, and he was very wise. He would, each morning, rise and go outside his house and sit on an old wooden chair. And as people passed by, he would tell them stories. Stories of great victories and stories of defeats. Stories of loves found and of loves lost. Stories of great gain and stories of great loss. And the people as they passed by would stop and listen to the storyteller’s stories. Sometimes there were only a few people listening and then some other times there were many. The sun would rise to the sound of the storyteller’s voice and the sun would set to the sound of the storyteller’s voice. Those of the peoples of the kingdom that listened would give the storyteller food to eat and water to drink.
And so, the days passed.
The people passed.
The storyteller told his stories.
The people listened.
The people gave him food and water.
The sun set.
And a new day began. Until one day the storyteller didn’t rise from his bed. And the people passed by and wondered what had happened to the old man. But life was busy in that kingdom. And the storyteller was forgotten.
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